As darkness, as light

Thank you surrounding darkness,

for forcing me to see my light.

Thank you agonizing pain,

for driving me mad enough to feel

my total well being.

Thank you sickness,

for making me see your illusion, and claim myself as healthy.

Thank you hatred

for driving me insane enough,

to surrender to love.

Thank you shrinking shame,

for making me feel so vulnerable, naked and real, and therefore compassionate towards others shame based reality.

Thank you bitterness,

for making me feel a wonderful sense of freedom,

when I choose forgiveness.

Thank you bastards for letting me see my beauty.

Thank you ego, for making me become this human divine.

Thank you Death, for giving me a New Life!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPp7mVTstv4&feature=related

Blue velvet

There are these moments -

moments when all I see is blue.

These moments are the moments,

when I need

to get myself home to you.

To see myself in your eyes.

To feel myself as you.

To meet my strangeness in your presence,

to become true,

to the color blue.

The blue is pulling me through -

It´s calling me all the way

through the dark forest of shame,

and over the high mountain of stiffened fear -

and home to the Land of You.

"Strange color blue", I am amazed.

How your light highly guides -

when I let your signs

decide.

Who would know? That the color blue,

were pure

as the first white snow -

ever falling on you.

Please enjoy following musical attachment:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4ZFhmvfzUY

In the dark hours

When you look at the world and all you see is darkness,

remember that what you see are illusions,

and embrace the truth that - you are LIFE.

When friends are not friends anyway,

and you feel the same pain

as hundred times before,

remember to let go,

because you have your best friend right inside of your heart.

When you forget to be good to yourself,

and it seems like you´ll never get it right,

remember that this is just a cloud passing by.

It´s in the moments of confusion, you gain clarity.

It´s in the moment of despair, you declare your hope.

It´s in the times of darkness, that you re-connect with your inner sun.

Look at the birds - do they quit singing, because of what´s going on in the world?

Do the dolphins stop playing, because of the financial crisis?

No, they keep loving life - for that´s the natural thing to do.

They keep singing their song, because that´s how they celebrate God.

They keep it up, because, there is no use letting the world drag your spirit down.

The world is just a play, and it will go on for a while or two.

There´s no reason to be a part of the play, if you don´t want to.

When you are attending the play, you are playing by the rules of the world.

When you realize that you can step out of this play,

by breaking your attachments to this world,

you have already freed yourself tremendously.

If you keep up - keep recognizing your attachments,

and break them one by one,

you will free both your heart, your mind and your soul,

and start singing your song.

The song that you are. The song you somewhere along the way forgot.

Liberation is in you -

liberation is what happens when you get insight into the rules of creation.

The rules of the world, is empty, and leads to emptiness.

The rules of the Creator, are made of true love,

and therefore can only lead to abundance and love.

When you are down and troubled,

I recommend that you don´t seek solutions in the world,

because the world was what got you down and troubled in the first place.

Seek inside your heart - see how your heart is connected

to God´s heart - that you are ONE.

When you seek and practice to live by the laws of God,

then you will have your Heaven right here on Earth.

Please enjoy following musical attachment:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHbiXCaEOuI

The unexpected look in the mirror

One night

I asked God

to show me to my beloved. I fell asleep and then ---

Then God lead me to the mirror

on my wall,

and made me look at my Self.

Please enjoy the following:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAUquX-cWr4

Colors of Season

The trees are giving away
their green summer dresses
to October,
who first lights up
in a golden firework

before
leaving us standing
completely naked, and
given away -
to reckless November.

Whom breaks and tears
in all of us -
while we are trying to hold back.

Until we dead tired of fighting-
Surrenders.

to white and safe December,
whom securely guides us to the shore
of a new year.

To a blank and open January
whom we don´t know anything about
except that his name is;
Januari, and that he has opened his door
- for us.

Please enjoy following musical and visual attachment: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ptnnAx5uvM0

Divine Design

This day is made for design

Not for swedish IKEA design,

but rather for the design of life.

This day is open.

Open to change habits -

change of rules, change of patterns.

I´m starting

by taking off

my old grey clothes

and putting on some brand new

and shiny ones!

This day is made to manifest

ourselves as divine beings, -

created by and for Love itself.

Today is THE day.

There is no other day, this is it!

The now is all there is now.

Nothing else can really be NOW, can it?

I will design my NOW gracefully, carefully, specifically -

for the benefit of myself and my fellow others,

and for all Gods creations.

I wish to become what the Creator first created -

a loving being of free will,

who chooses the design out of pure intention of love.

I don´t want to be Swedish IKEA design,

I want to claim the right to be the I am that I am -

a piece of Divine Design.

Please enjoy following musical attachment:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7Vb5y3RLUE&feature=fvst

Garden of dignity

Let your flowers be wild and free

Let your flowers be wild and free,

but still be kept inside your garden

of dignity.

Let lovingly words

spring from your mouth.

And when in stillness,

let them live tenderly

on your lips. -

As fresh raindrops

floats on a green leaf

and soothes both the leaf and the eye of the observer.

Let your heart be deep as the ocean

and wide as the endless sky,

but still be protected by walls made of crystals,

which holds the rooms full of stars

in a divine planetary order.

Let the light shine

inside your mind,

and let your heart feel the pain

of bearing to much beauty alone -

because both rain and sunshine is necessary

to grow a tree of fruits.

May you, my friend, my brother, my sister, come forth,

and be the who -

you came to be.

Let yourself feel the greatness

of being just small enough

to suit perfectly inside

- the heart of life.

Please enjoy following music attachments:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=amnB2u4VihY&feature=related

The power of Love

I started to love you before I was born.

I started to love you before I was born.

I loved you through all my happy childhood days,

when the sun was shining high on the sky and the grass was whispering their secrets to me.

I loved you when I was afraid of going to school,

when I was trying to escape the mental slavery, by gazing out

of the window and into the clouds...

I loved you when I fearfully cried myself to sleep at night -

I loved you through all the days I struggled in my self obsessed pain!

I loved you all the time I hated you.

I loved you when you cried, and I loved you when you laughed.

I loved you when we were together, and I loved you when we were apart.

I loved you all the way, all the time, with all of my being.

I loved you all the moments

I tried not to.

I loved you even in the moments I denied myself

to experience love.

I loved you when you loved me, and also, when you hated me.

I loved you when you loved yourself, and I loved you when you despited yourself -

I loved you through hell and I loved you through heaven.

Still I love you just as much as I ever did.

I love you today,

here and now,

in the exact same amount as yesterday,

and that is to say: endlessly.

Stardust

In the dark and cold mold -

deep in our material beings  
the treasure is hiding

It´s hiding as a spark,

or shall I say,

as twinkling stardust?

The material world is not just a huge amount of atoms,

but exist actually mostly of empty space.

What is this space for?

Can it be for light?

In other words -

if we look deep into our material beings, will we find particles of light?

When Michelangelo sculptured his masterpieces

he didn´t make the sculptures by adding one marblepiece to another.

Actually he didn´t add anything -

he carved off pieces

until the hidden form in the block was found.

He reveiled what was hidden in the material.

He did the noble act of finding the beauty

and bringing it from darkness to light.

We can learn from Michelangelo´s technique.

Instead of thinking that we are lacking something

or believing that we are not enough -

we can believe that we, as the marbleblocks, are beholders

of magnificent forms -

all we need to do is to disclosure it.

In order to do so we need to re-move.

We need to re-move our attachment to things.

We are not our jobs, we are not our economy, we are not our furniture, we are not our image, we are not our skills, we are not our society, we are not our educations and we are not even our language.

We are something way much deeper.

We are something way much deeper.

By starting to quit adding.

By starting to remove

all unnecessary and disturbing elements in our lives.

By identifying that ongoing inner dialogue in our heads,

which tells us falsely who we are - good or bad -

By taking control over who and what

we let define ourselves,

we can make room

for the spaces of light -

to shine!

We can end the rat race.

We can end the rat race.

You don´t have to finish that grade to be worthy -

You don´t have to buy that house to belong -

You are already worthy and you are already belonging.

You have dust from the stars within -

which means that you are born to shine regardless of gender, age, religion, profession and position.

If you walk the inner path,

you will notice that this path shines brighter

than any outwardly streetwear.

We have been given the sparkle -

it is placed in our material beings as a treasure.

The way to make the sparkle shine is to let go of the outwardly search,

and start moving inwards.

If you make that travel,

"The Great Tour",

through your very own being -

you will see

that in the middle of your darkest secret,

in that dark place you haven´t even dared to touch -

right there is the cross. There is the mark for the treasure.

If you dig (t)here -

you will open a box of golden stardust -

a box of golden light.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JT31IbR7Te4&feature=related

Gold digger

I have a confession to make.

I am a gold digger.

I want nothing less than pure gold,

and I search for it every single day.

I am not interested in earthy metals, I am interested in divinity.

Where do one start the search,

for a treasure like that?

If you were a treasure who wanted to be found,

wouldn´t you leave some kind of trace,

so that you actually could be found?

And wouldn´t you make sure that only those sincere seekers with good intentions could find you?

If divinity is misused it creates disorder in the order of all things, and that cannot happen.

Therefore you would hide in the most secret and dark places, -

places where only those brave, sincere, faithful and patient one goes.

If you already are a true seeker -

it still requires all your intention and all your concentration to find the treasure.

It requires the effort of open your inner eye, your mind and your wounded heart.

It requires that you learn to forgive yourself and others.

It requires boldness to step outside

of the mind-box, and into your sensitive heart.

In addition it requires the daily use of prayer and meditation,

along with a healthy lifestyle.

Those of us who are brave enough to do the work,

and to walk deep into our own dark forest,

will sooner or later,

find our inner sparkle of light.

Our inner eye

will recognize.

Our inner eye will recognize and comprehend

that stardust are not dead particles,

but vast shining spaces -

which are deeply and mysteriously connected

to the brightest of all stars -

and not just to the brightest star, but actually to the very source -

of light and darkness.

When we see that deep down in the darkest and coldest mold,

guarded by dragons, trolls and wicked witches -

lies a glittering source -

when we see this we will be lifted to a higher ground.

So, start digging with me

for the real gold -

the gold that gives everlasting fulfillment.

Dip your feet into your deep and dark river,

and have faith in the fact that

a treasure´s nature -

is to be found in the dark.

Yes, there are obstacles to overcome,

yes, there are deep forests to walk through,

and yes, there are giant oceans to cross,

but if you travel,

"The great tour",

you will receive the gift of eternal love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKFqvB865Yo